some post from back then

Here's something I wrote from my private blog.

From last month, maybe.

And, yeah, I'm this lazy to go and check the date.

Blogging is dead.

Yet here I am. Blogging.

Blah.
Im just sidesweeping my thoughts.
Distracting myself -- a lame attempt, that is.

Okay.
So.

I hate to admit it but I'm still thinking ofmy husband's used-to-be-special-friend.

Weird.

In reality, we don't even know each other. I had this i-hate-her-cause-my-guy-dated-her kind of feeling. Not for long, though.She was like nonexistent.

Until she died.

Well, It was ill-fate for her to die at a young age. And I feel the pain of her mom and her sister (I'm stalking them now!)

She may have lived a happy life.

   Parties.

      Beers.

         Pranks.

            Everything that only she knows.

And what do I even know, right?

But that wasn't even half of what life is.

   A husband.

      Kids.

         Family.

Things she could have had if only she lived a little longer.

Yet who am I to question what God had for her?

Maybe some time in her life she prayed so hard to die.

Or maybe God knew she had enough.

Who knows?

I't's just that...

Everytime I think of her,

I can feel her mom.

I can imagine how hard each day is for her.

She will never forget.

And the pain will be there

until she sees her again.

I hope, and pray, that she gets used to the missing piece in her heart.

So that every 

single

day 

may not be as hard

as it was yesterday. 

And to you, woman,

I dare not name you out of respect.

You are loved

So much by your family and friends.

You may have had fallen in love

with the wrong guy, (bitter alert, here!)

and had your heart broken.

But your family loves you.

I hope you can see their pain,

appreciate their love,

be happy,
and rest in peace.